When Autumn Stopped Being So Beautiful:
For Derek, 9/29/1979 – 10/26/2011
Fall unsettles me.
The air cools with a hush
that’s both fleeting
and permanent.
The moon reflects silence
and absence.
My son was born
in late September.
I lost him in October.
Two months hold celebration
and grief, memory
and mourning together
where I walk again through
the joy of cradling my firstborn
and the ache of his leaving.
© Linda K. Sienkiewicz 2025
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Also read Derek’s Black Hill Spruce
Birthdays after you lose a child
Thank you for visiting! Author Linda K. Sienkiewicz is a wrangler of words and big messy feelings. Her second novel, Love and Other Incurable Ailments, is coming October 27, 2026, from Regal House Publishing: When love letters from a despondent stranger land in her lap, an anxious overthinker becomes convinced she’s the cure, and sets off to save him, and herself, blissfully armed with nothing but magical thinking.
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